13 posts tagged “life”
Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once again, you long
to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me
We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea -
but if you can still remember
stop and think of me . . .
Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .
Think of me, think of me waking,
silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying too hard
to put you from my mind.
Recall those days
look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do -
there will never be a day,
when I won't think of you . . .
Flowers fades,
The fruits of summer fade,
They have their seasons, so do we
but please promise me, that sometimes
you will think of me!
from my favourite musical.
in case you were wondering, the singer is familiar because she has abandoned her pride to participate in that shitty dragonball movie recently. travesty.
Anywayyyy the point is, a chapter is about to come to a close. walking around school and seeing the multitude of "law admissions interviews at eu tong sen building" signs plastered around today made reality hit home all at once. a new batch is coming in, and i won't be around to mock at how flustered they are over LAWR, bitch abt how irritating and know-it-all they are, comment on the good bad and uglies of the batch etc. because this batch is taking over mine. the dean is right, every year marks the end of a 4 year cycle and mine is about to come to an end.
i still think i left my heart in KR campus, in pgp, along the corridors of our beloved old law fac campus. constantly i get flashbacks of the brown tiled floor and wooden tables of the empty space near the old student counter. i'm not sure why i recall such a nondescript location; maybe the times spent preparing for moots and lawr, and for law camps and passing through to get to the biz canteen have made a more lasting impression on me than i realise.
biz canteen... the pgp girls (hah yes the habitual latecomers who colonised the back row of the LT) would eat together after lectures, and tg8 (what a vibrant bunch we were) would share breakfasts after morning tutorials. i'd eat the overly sweet mango sago dessert, or the pomelo salad from the pseudo vietnamese stall. the guys would go crazy over "next please" sausages and western food.
pgp. i think i've reminisced ad nauseum about it already. but there, i found friends, experienced freedom and independence, shared fun, shed tears, grown up. to whom it may concern, remember remember, that night in december, april, may and baileys+soyabean.
Flowers fades,
The fruits of summer fade,
They have their seasons, so do we
but please promise me, that sometimes
you will think of me.
the coffee from booth X at the careers fair today is working wonders for me at this small hour of the morning. well done coffee bean! anyway, law careers fair today was not a disappointment there was complimentary food to be had --> money to be saved + happiness to be eating sth other than canteen food. it was rather saddening that we were discriminated against because of our age; we were denied gifts because we're year 4. do not discriminate! treat older workers equally! :p that aside, this is my last careers fair and next year, i'll be the one at the booth (hopefully) trying to convince kids that the office where I'm sweating blood at is fun and merry land. such a sobering thought and once again, i sigh for my age.
i do not take well to gambles that turn out badly on hindsight. yes i know hindsight is 20-20 and that there's no point crying over spilt milk, but i just feel such a sense of waste and wahlao-ness when something better subsequently comes along. a few weeks ago, we thought that our $1.4k flight to San Fran on NWA was a great deal, and based on the knowledge we had then, it really was a good $500 or so cheaper than the average flight. but today, there's some pre natas promo on cathay for just $1.1k. arggg cathay service and flights are so much better! i would feel some pain if the flight was also $1.4k too, much less even cheaper. sigh, i shall fly vicariously through Adr who will be taking that flight 2 hours later than us. but if life were an open book and u knew the ending before it came, any decision wouldn't really be a choice then would it? would you rather be satisfied with every decision you make, or choose to live for the day and relish the rights and celebrate the wrongs? somehow, i might actually want to read the story of my life.
sadly, the xmas- new year- chinese new year festive season has come to a close already. i'm feeling quite tired of after the first month of school already, possibly because it got off to a bad start with the add drop dramatics. february's gonna be a month of nightly intensives (yes, i'm a student of the night; coming to school as people start to head home) and 6 day weeks. i draw support from the fact that it's actually just 18 nights of 3 hour courses, but when i'm in the room with FOUR people in it and i can't even msn in peace, things get somewhat harder. yup.
SOOO... the latest financial scandal has erupted; a "well respected and much trusted" money manager has siphoned off $500 BILLION of guileless customers' money. dad is quite annoyed that his hedge fund has been trimmed since Britain's Man Holdings stuck their itchy fingers into that company and have lost big time. this financial turmoil is uncovering more skeletons in the closets day by day. wth, with a name like that, wasn't it kind of a no brainer that he would have MadeOff with the funds!?
my days have been... leisurely. shopping, meeting friends, eating at nice new places, vegging and feeling liberated from knowing that there's no case to read or tutorial to do. this will probably be my last slack holiday ever since next year's May-June vacation will be spent traversing the US. the days could be much better if not for the fact that i feel rather guilty for wasting my time away instead of earning my own keep. paradox. speaking of the US, there's now a brand new game online where the you can play the role of a certain head of state and duck flying footwear that come hurtling your way. wow, computer geeks are damn prompt. flee the footwear!!!, or if you'd rather whack the dog.
OMG! i can finally blog! OK, even though its 3am, i shd post something in case this joy is short lived...
yep, i just got back from the party i planned for khel and i'm glad that everyone left full and "liquidated". they liked the cake that ying, sm and i baked, the food that people made/ bought was yummy, we critiqued and found flaws in the storyline of some HK show together, albert went on a crazy rampage making the k(h)elvins drink beer in some super quick mode; some people handled the mess better than others (pictures will reveal) and it was generally a good get together =) Christmas time is coming, which means the festive/ year end celebration, revelry and feasting will commence, which is not good for the exercise regime at all. but heck, the good times tip the opportunity cost scale conclusively.
now for some veryyyy overdue photos. blame vox for preventing me from blogging the past 2 weeks or so!
// group photo of the day // ying getting china girl bangs which she hated // ping's bday dinner at la nonna. wonderful pizza! // bday girl struggling to pop the champagne that the manager very kindly treated us to // ping n her girls //
our localised celebration of oktoberfest at kr50... for the poor post exchange guys, i'm sure this was but a mere shadow of the past, but well, beggers can't be chosers, especially pre-exam beggers.
and then on halloween night, there was beer, wine, mirth and merriment again at the pub quiz. good stuff, especially since the booze is much sweeter when it's won and earned. clubbing with vampires, pharoahs, walking bedsheets, pale faced people with bad makeup made for an exciting night. the photos will come soon, but for now... i have to study for an exam in 5 days! fug.
// lonnngggg ago in september, we went for mortini hour // cutesy pop tart aka tart // nice photo of my girls // the intricate gold carving on the wall that probably contains some good confucian values that the more erudite might understand // Yes i know even october is over already, hrmph, i'm late so that you can reminisce ok! //
how come the mid sem break passed by so soon!?!?! ok, granted that monday was spent in lalaland after too many drinks at the lawiv afterparty, the other 4 days so far have marched by and forgotten to sign in at HQ! I'm damn glad that there's no urgent assignment to hand in after the break, cos there's no way that i can make the transition from production rehearsal mode to muggermaniac mode so soon. stilll... there's chinese corp exam and islamic law research paper due in 3 weeks. Run for the hillssss!! went to the old campus today to try to fulfil the research aspect of the research paper and felt so old but also rather out of place cos in some undefinable way, the btc folk atop our ivory hill just look and act differently. of course i'm not assessing the tiongers' standards, but slug to snail, we're just not the same. must have been evolution after being booted out of the west and being subject to Summit food over the years. anyway the curtains have fallen gracefully on "the perfect wedding" and i'm happy to report a successful production. but now that we no longer have to dance those same dances day in day out, nor hide backstage or wait in the audi for our rehearsals, there is a sense of emptiness and lack of direction in life. i guess "at the end of the day, we can turn around and say, This is what Love is..."
the air conditioning in my room is getting cold. i wish i had my old blue fuzzy bedroom slippers to hide my feet into.
a few nights ago, i wished that i could round up some friends and eat supper on a whim in the holland v crystal jade restaurant. i didn't need the food, i just wanted to be there.
today i passed by that window on the 4th floor of pgp block 8, i wished that the past was a video store and i could just walk in and choose any part i wanted to replay.
and then there was that route from the old school, guild house, kr, pgp. taken many times, by many people.
events have unfolded that i wish didn't taunt me in the face; they'll still be there even after i stop closing my eyes
i'm in a comfortable cocoon,
but i don't merely want to be content.
time seems to have passed by so damn fast, but upon reflection, we've really done and went through quite a lot the past 2 months or so. lurking around school the whole weekend to wait for my scene to finally begin was quite sian-nifying because well... i was just waiting and unneeded for most of the time but still had to be on red alert for my cue. nvm, just a week more; for charity. i'm really proud of the achievements of my batchmates; the set is amazing (i painted a tiny bit only so i'm not self praising =p), the logistics have been handled adriotly and the motions thought out well. well down us, i'm glad that there's such a traditional for us to do something fun yet meaningful before we just go out to start work. alright i'm damnnnn sleepy now, and i can't even muster up some energy to read any notes. sigh, much catching up to do once next week is done with!
The past 2 days have been spent being a Mandarin girl; Tuesday in the Oriental and Wednesday in Meritus.
the buffet at triple3 was delightful; the spread was amazing and it wasn't the usual mass produced yawn inducing variety. khel discovered, to my horror, that the oysters on ice were still alive and that they wld contract slightly when we squeezed lemon juice on them. omg that is DAMN GROSS, how can people bear the thought of snuffing the last vestiges of life out of a living thing in their mouth and subject it to Death by Molar?! i know its hypocritical- what's the difference between having someone kill my food for me and me doing it personally? well, fears are irrational; so shoot me. khel had no qualms at all and proceeded to send many more of the poor suckers to their salivery graves
for a while, the plan was that shloke wld be here in sg too, within spitting distance to go for tea time chats and shopping trips every so often. but the books were re-written and now she's going to be leaving for yet another year. emails and msn won't feel the same as commiserating, laughing and shrieking together across the coffee table, but cest la vie, i wish you all the best my dear... may you continue to do brilliantly in your studies and i hope that you'll be able to clinch your dream job!
we parted ways at marina square and as we lingered over our goodbyes, she remarked that it was like we were in the airport. 29/9/05 was the day wasn't it? i was just a first yearer and you were preparing for the unknown in life half a globe away. so much has changed in the meantime, as we have; but i'm very grateful that we've kept the friendship alive and that we've been spared the anguish of finding our conversations peppered with increasingly awkward pauses. thank you for friendship and for love. waiting for you to come home for christmas!
